So I ended up down the rabbit hole to discover that wonderland is a construct of my mind. No such thing as absolutes, no such thing as happiness, only happy moments and whatever is in between. Life itself has too many colors, and even if we try to measure and be deterministic about it, I rather live as it goes, meeting new challenges and goals, only to regret the things I never tried, because whenever there’s failure there is also a lesson, and whenever something good happens there’s a memory worth remembering.