* Walking around midtown I saw an advertisement with a picture of a baby and three different perceptions of such baby: expense, legacy or love. It makes me wonder which one will apply to us.
* Around 10 years ago I went to a cinema and experienced “Fight Club”, a movie that among other things, ends with “Where is my mind” song of the Pixies. Ten years later I’ve just experienced the Pixies, and their concert also ended with the same song. Both experiences are highlights that I remember with great joy.
* Slow but steady is the only way. There are no short cuts for great rewards. Failure sometimes is the result for giving up. However, it is such a pleasure when the hardest challenges are conquered… only if briefly celebrated, totally worth the effort.
* After covering miles, walking since very early in the morning, we finally sat at a bar and had some beers. The space was somewhat familiar, reminding us of the east village, lower east side or somewhere in park slope. To my benefit, the bartender played the whole Joy Division’s “Closer” album. Montreal turned out to be almost like home… except for everybody speaking french.
“This is why events unnerve me, They find it all, a different story, Notice whom for wheels are turning, Turn again and turn towards this time, All she asks the strength to hold me, Then again the same old story, Word will travel, oh so quickly, Travel first and lean towards this time.
Oh, I’ll break them down, no mercy shown, Heaven knows, its got to be this time, Watching her, these things she said, The times she cried, Too frail to wake this time.
Oh, I’ll break them down, no mercy shown, Heaven knows, its got to be this time, Avenues all lined with trees, Picture me and then you start watching, Watching forever, forever, Watching love grow, forever, Letting me know, forever.”
Ian Curtis (July 15, 1956 – May 18,1980)
* Hope: “the state of feeling that what one wants will or might happen”. And there is also wishful thinking. Whether we get what we want or we earn what we get…. it’s makes me wonder. Do we value more what cost us dearly than what we have taken for granted?
* The day and night that I spent alone in a hotel room watching ‘south park’ and reading some heavy geeky book was quite a special day. It was right before embarking in yet another gruesome demanding challenge… far from home. And this time around I lost. Earned only a few more scars etched on my brain. And yet as difficult and painful as it was…. I will have to get back and try again.
* It feels like baby season. My sister and some of my friends are now trying to figure out this “being a parent” thing. On the job training seems to be standard. The idea of having a “baby-jenny” in the future is quite amusing, even if I am not 100% convinced.
* There is no way to achieve anything perfect: not a relationship, not an engineering design, not a musical composition. It’s a good idea to learn how to find middle ground. Too much of anything can be an overload and override the few good things it has. Too little of anything and it won’t make much of a difference. The science of compromise.